I want to stop coughing right now !!!

After the karaoke session, I have had a slightly hoarse voice and have been coughing the entire week ! The worst thing is that there are about 30 people at the moment who are all coughing as well. I blame the air conditioning here !!!

Training sucks. Well, the actual training does. First of all, it was like cramming a whole semester's worth of university into 3 days. I had 24 hours of training in 3 days, which exactly equals a whole semester of 2 one hour lectures a week for 12 weeks. Urg !!! The lecturer talks and talks and you have to be alert and look intelligent and ask smart questions and not fall asleep. This is really hard !! And the worse thing is, there is no study vacation. After the lectures ended on Thursday at 5, I had my exam the very next day ! Talk about being bloody unfair ! How am I supposed to even be prepared for this ! What makes me even more angry is that, though it is multiple choice, out of 4 answers, up to 3 COULD be correct as they put in 2 half correct answers and 1 totally correct answer. You get half marks if you choose the half correct answer. You might think it is therefore easier to get at least SOME marks, but then how much harder do you have to think to get your marks !!!!!! People were spending up to 30 minutes on one single question ! I also had a toothache and headache in addition to my cough so I was doubly punished for slow thinking. I was also extremely sleepy and tired. I was thinking so slowly ! And even worse, it was not even calculations and things you usually expect from a test on options and foreign exchange. Instead, it was a lot of though provoking big picture questions which I am SURE that I am not mature/intelligent enough to handle. Why do I say that ? Do you know who I am up against ? I only have a commerce degree from Melbourne. Some people here are half geniuses. One has worked for 3 years already and one has an undergraduate degree from UCLA as well as a Finance Masters from Harvard and a MBA from Cambridge. Talk about and unfair starting position !!!!!

I am so sincerely upset about my test. In fact, so frustrated and upset that I went karaoke again with a bunch of HK GAs. With my cough. Which got so bad in a small room, I could not even sing and my voice changed. Urg. I hate it !! I wish my cough was gone. It is distracting and irritating to everyone else and even to me.

I wish I was more intelligent so I could tell people the test was not so hard. I wish I was more hardworking so that I would study more and make more trips to the gym instead of watching Disney cartoons and eating snacks. I wish I was a better person. I wish it was Christmas so I could ask Santa for a magic potion that would make me a better person. Or at least a wand that would make people worse than me.

Thank goodness for people from Hong Kong. I am not saying that they are the best people in the world. But I am saying that I am having a load of fun with them . And even those in Melbourne were great too !

I hope my test did not totally suck as I am already very pressured to do well for my country. As well as for myself of course, it would be really nice to let everyone know that I am the best for the year, but how ? STRESS !!!! And you thought life would be better after university. It does NOT. This test has gotten me aware just how important it will be to stay awake in the next 4 week's of training and learn stuff and score high. And also to thank the stars that some of these GAs were IT/Arts/Economics/Engineering graduates. If it was so hard for myself as a Finance graduate, these people must be peeing their pants.

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