You know there is something funny going on when you cannot stop smiling as you look into your computer screen. Since I missed a couple of episodes of Project Runway, I was reading episode recaps. I do that a lot for shows I have no time or Astro to watch. Anyway, there is this episode where Kara says to the camera that she will snip off Daniel's pee-pee if they get eliminated while snipping a huge pair of scissors. I found that very funny and could visualise her saying that. Which is very bad ! I visualised a whole episode of Desperate Housewives so I was pretty freaked out when I found out that it happened and sounded just like I thought it would have. This is a danger. I am certainly getting addicted to these characters as they seem to be more real to me than 'real' people !!! I know how they speak and how they smile and how they sound like. Dangerous. I need to talk to real people more ! But I reiterate that Project Runway and House are the best shows being shown at the moment. Sheesh, definitely watching too much television. And I am so in love with Heidi Klum.

I am also surfing to see how to plan a short trip to Ipoh. Maybe just a day or maybe overnight. Not sure if it will happen though. MrLou just returned from skiing in Melbourne. Lucky lucky person ! I would love to go skiing now. Or even just visit Melbourne for 2 weeks. But as I have known, it is much harder to save money than it seems. I have already given up on Hong Kong at the end of this year, and I have mentally recalculated my Melbourne trip next year a million times to convince myself that I can afford it. It sucks to be poor, yes. And as of now, I have decided NOT to buy the boots. NO. NO BOOTS ! What about the D&G T-shirts that I wanted to get though ?...........I will take a look at them again this weekend and decide then. Sigh. But self discipline is sooooooooo important. It gives me some comfort to know that I tried on 3 funky shirts (you know, those with straps and useless buttons, and zips and words everywhere...) that I loved and did not buy one. I wore them. Enjoyed them in the dressing room and took them off. Loved them, but no. Is it not sad ? Almost as if I was one of the starving children in Africa. But then again, they probably do not know what salmon tastes like, so they might miss it. But when you have tried on jackets and T-shirts in Chapel and Collins which costs as much as a semester's worth of fees, you yearn. Shucks. For someone who dislikes high maintenance in other people, I am terrible. I wish I was more easily satisfied. Because I truly think it is a big obstacle to me being totally happy. I am very hard to please. But that might not be totally true, because sometimes I am easily pleased too. I think there is this whole different parts about each person concept. Hmmm. Too complicated.

It is freezing here. Talking about freezing, I have been having insomnia for the past three nights and I am just not getting enough sleep. In effect, I have been getting rather cranky and bored with the geezers over here. So a tad impatient when they fail to understand some things but I am not letting it get to me, yet. I still need to be the perfect one until I can afford NOT to be the perfect one. Somehow, you learn how to act better at work, after watching hours of reality TV. Seriously, there has to be someting going on with the whole thing of being nice, or at least PRETENDING to be nice, until you get what you want/need. Everyone is doing it, or should I rather say that everyone, who is somewhere, or going somewhere or wants to be somewhere is doing it. Yea, it is great to be yourself and be nice to everyone but it is a law of nature that you cannot do that. I am nice and I try to be nice most of the time. And yes, it is sincere. But sometimes, I do fake ! it especially if occasion calls for it. That is life. Adult life anyway. Probably because when you were younger in school, you did not really need as much help from others in life. By now, you would think that growing up kinda sucks. Maybe. But I think it is all a matter of learning how to deal with it to the best of your abilities and then making the best of everything. And if life sucks, it sucks. Get a drink and a friendly ear, and rant. Or just blog about it. And then return to your hateful situation and smile. Hehe. Enjoy your youth. Growing up is harder than you think.

We had to work on National Day even though it was a public holiday as they were rushing to complete some projects. Ug. But it was ok and work today was alright as well and once again I am puzzled at how people can be surprised by the awesome power of microsoft office !? Just because I completed a few hundred letters on Word as well as a whole lot of databasing on Excel. Crap, this is not even the programming that I learnt in university. Now that was crappy. But I suppose it does now matter how I impress these people as long as I impress them right ? Yep.

I am stoked as there are only about 5 days to KL ! Woohoo ! Absolutely cannot wait. I have thought about the boots again and have decided against them again. And I just realised that I actually DO have a whole bit of savings......since the bank will be paying for my CFA exams, there is a couple of thousand right there. Phew. I guess I am not as poor as all that. But still, no boots. But maybe 2 shirts. Maybe.

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