Sometimes I wonder, what it is that I do wrong in this life of mine.

Do I second guess people too many times, always thinking that I know everything, and that certain things should happen a certain way ?

Do I place first impressions so importantly that my opinions and ways of thinking are biased ?

Am I too sensitive to find out that in many...no...in most cases, it is NOT about me ?

Do I have weird sleeping times, always to the point of unhealthiness ?

Have I had too little self discipline ? Not just only in work but other areas as well ?

Do I have no ethics ?

Why do I think that my morals are the way it should be ?

Why am I negative ?

Why do I bend at times to peer pressure ?

What is it that makes me want to have a certain impression on different people ?

Am I hypocritical ?

Why am I proud that I am technologically deficient ?

Am I vain ? (I know the answer to this...)

Do I procrastinate way too much, keeping certain worthless things important and doing them first instead of real things ?

It is really hard to be an adult is it not ?

One wonders if one could really ever hold on to the past. Things ebb and flow. You find out that maybe you are not that important anyway. Out of sight, out of mind. Parties will still go on, exams will still be held, people will still be happy even if you are not there. Since when were you the most important thing to the world, other than to yourself ?

Selfish Selfish Selfish. And Stupid as well.

But.

Sometimes. Sometimes, all you might want is a hug. But you have to tell people because they do not know your need.

But be careful, even if you tell them....you might not get one.

It is a tough world out there baby.

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