Shit happens.

Just a while more before I fly off to my first assignment and hopefully the first of many, abroad. I guess like many other people I have always dreamed of working overseas. Having the nice flight, the nice food, the nice hotel, the nice travel expenses, the nice clothes, meeting people all over and the fun times. Though once I might have hankered after a job overseas, I think I am perfectly satisfied if my base were in Malaysia but my job would take me all around the world, for a couple of months each time maybe. Perfectly sublime !!

I am in a pretty good place now. Good mentor, good manager. They paid me to have a holiday on an island (Labuan) then paid me to stay in a 5 star hotel in KL city centre to have lots of fun, paid for my exam, and now they are paying for a trip to China, paying for my clothes and accommodation. Sometimes I wonder if I am good enough for my job. But then, I figure maybe they think I am cute enough, (wahahaha) and I guess, well that is good enough for me. LOL.

And then in the midst of all these happiness, there is always the thorn. The ones you want to call you, do not. The ones you just want to ignore keep on coming. What is wrong with the world ? But when you feel bad, and you say the wrong things, some people might forgive you, for some others, everything will be changed forever.

When I was packing for this trip, every piece of clothing was shouting out "pick me ! pick me !' and obviously you cannot bring every piece along. You have to make choices. I must say I have improved a lot from my younger years, and yet I still do think I overpacked but yet cannot throw out a single item. I might even stick a couple more in. I think just like my life, it is time to clean the closet. Some things should be thrown away, some things dusted off and kept nicely and some to wear out in the open. Some just for special parties, some just to look at and some to sleep. And when you think about it, do we not do the same things with friends ? Some just to party with, some to study with, some to talk with, some just to catch up once a year and some just to say yea you knew them.

So for DamiBear, IzyBear and KaiBear who are going to be doing their summers, I guess I will see you some time next year maybe... Too bad, but then such is life. I suppose I cannot expect everything to go my way. Maybe next time. Because is it not optimism which keeps us smiling all the time ? Maybe next time something good will happen.

Good luck to everyone waiting for their results and may you all have a happy holiday.

I heart you.

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