I want to stop coughing right now !!!

After the karaoke session, I have had a slightly hoarse voice and have been coughing the entire week ! The worst thing is that there are about 30 people at the moment who are all coughing as well. I blame the air conditioning here !!!

Training sucks. Well, the actual training does. First of all, it was like cramming a whole semester's worth of university into 3 days. I had 24 hours of training in 3 days, which exactly equals a whole semester of 2 one hour lectures a week for 12 weeks. Urg !!! The lecturer talks and talks and you have to be alert and look intelligent and ask smart questions and not fall asleep. This is really hard !! And the worse thing is, there is no study vacation. After the lectures ended on Thursday at 5, I had my exam the very next day ! Talk about being bloody unfair ! How am I supposed to even be prepared for this ! What makes me even more angry is that, though it is multiple choice, out of 4 answers, up to 3 COULD be correct as they put in 2 half correct answers and 1 totally correct answer. You get half marks if you choose the half correct answer. You might think it is therefore easier to get at least SOME marks, but then how much harder do you have to think to get your marks !!!!!! People were spending up to 30 minutes on one single question ! I also had a toothache and headache in addition to my cough so I was doubly punished for slow thinking. I was also extremely sleepy and tired. I was thinking so slowly ! And even worse, it was not even calculations and things you usually expect from a test on options and foreign exchange. Instead, it was a lot of though provoking big picture questions which I am SURE that I am not mature/intelligent enough to handle. Why do I say that ? Do you know who I am up against ? I only have a commerce degree from Melbourne. Some people here are half geniuses. One has worked for 3 years already and one has an undergraduate degree from UCLA as well as a Finance Masters from Harvard and a MBA from Cambridge. Talk about and unfair starting position !!!!!

I am so sincerely upset about my test. In fact, so frustrated and upset that I went karaoke again with a bunch of HK GAs. With my cough. Which got so bad in a small room, I could not even sing and my voice changed. Urg. I hate it !! I wish my cough was gone. It is distracting and irritating to everyone else and even to me.

I wish I was more intelligent so I could tell people the test was not so hard. I wish I was more hardworking so that I would study more and make more trips to the gym instead of watching Disney cartoons and eating snacks. I wish I was a better person. I wish it was Christmas so I could ask Santa for a magic potion that would make me a better person. Or at least a wand that would make people worse than me.

Thank goodness for people from Hong Kong. I am not saying that they are the best people in the world. But I am saying that I am having a load of fun with them . And even those in Melbourne were great too !

I hope my test did not totally suck as I am already very pressured to do well for my country. As well as for myself of course, it would be really nice to let everyone know that I am the best for the year, but how ? STRESS !!!! And you thought life would be better after university. It does NOT. This test has gotten me aware just how important it will be to stay awake in the next 4 week's of training and learn stuff and score high. And also to thank the stars that some of these GAs were IT/Arts/Economics/Engineering graduates. If it was so hard for myself as a Finance graduate, these people must be peeing their pants.

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I have a headache. Anyway, I came back to the hotel on Sunday night, but it was a mistake as I did not get enough sleep due to watching TV, (which I discovered has no AXN which might explain why I watch it less now) and was really sleepy throughout all the speeches given. The good part was we received our allowances in the evening. In cash. So 150 people were like walking around with a big stack of money in their bags/pockets. Smart me just went to the ATM and put it in all again. Then I hung out with some of the HK GAs again. They were basically waiting for everyone to gather up, but then some girls went shopping and some people were late. I think they do not really have much patience to wait for people, but then again, SoBear and FredBear were not exactly the most patient people either, especially when it comes to waiting for people. So could this be a common trait among all HK guys ? Hmm. Interesting.

After about 30 minutes of aimless walking, GAJordi was smart enough (thank goodness) to think about going to karaoke instead that night. However many people did not come so they went off, which made waiting for them a waste of time. So off we went, just me and 3 other HK GAs. We started singing and were joined later by another 7 people, so we switched to the biggest room, the one we used for my birthday. Hurray. We had 5 mikes which was good so that more people could sing at one time. We sang like crazy. Well some of us did. Some of the others sang a bit, drank a bit, played dice and danced around. I sang. And only sang, haha...it was pretty amazing. Although we only sang for 5 hours, I am so hoarse today, since I was practically singing for ALL the 5 hours. I sang some of the old favourites I had in Melbourne and of course we also had the new songs. So enjoyable. I believe that singing till you are hoarse at karaoke means you are a very dedicated singer. Haha.

Today marks the start of 5 weeks of training. Today so far I have had lectures on foreign exchange and how trading is done. It is quite interesting but I am also a bit tired, so I get drowsy. Must do well though.

But let me take some time to compliment GAJordi for good singing, GAGordon for the loudest voice and GAVincent for the most enthusiasm. Haha. Looking forward to more fun times ahead.

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It is finally the weekend and I can sigh with relief of having some time of my own. The hotel room is nice as can be seen above, the only difference is I have 2 super single beds and not the double bed. I like the super single beds anyway, as I got used to them last year. They are nice enough for a person plus 4 pillows or 2/3 persons with less pillows. Teehee. The good thing being back in the hotel is I get to continue watching Astro. And the better thing is the Astro here includes CNBC, Star Movies (YESSSSS!) and NHK. And some others. Yay. More TV, but I am in no way a TV addict.

Tuesday and Wednesday were just more of the same, training with meals and lots of networking and making friends from around the world. Went to Luna Bar again on Wednesday. It was pretty cool and GAHarry bought drinks for everyone a few times. He is from Taiwan and should be very rich because it turns out that even in Taiwan he bought drinks at a karaoke session for more than 70 people ! Amazing. It was a perfect ending to two days worth of boring mindless sessions of how important teamwork and leadership are important to your career. I already know it and I have always hated these self-help workshops. But I suppose it might help some people. I found it useless anyway.

On Thursday we went to Genting, but not up to the casino. Instead we were somewhere in the middle, at Awana where I remember riding horses about 12 years ago at least. Anyway, it was a dead boring place in the middle of lots of trees. We had to do a lot more activities including dancing, singing and playing with Lego to learn how to communicate. Urgh. After a very long day, including those pushing exercises meant to build trust, it ended at 10 pm. At this time, we thought we could go up to the casino. But the bus took forever to arrive and most people got tired of waiting and instead just hung around the bar. I talked to some GAs from Malaysia and then spent the rest of the time with the GAs from Hong Kong. More fun. Anyway. After rounds of talking and drinks and then lots of pool, we went upstairs where they talked some more about life and work and more serious stuff. And I realised some things about HK guys. It seems like so many things are like business transactions. Even having girlfriends. Apparently, they like to have a girlfriend because it makes them happy (and for the sex) but then they always complain about not having enough money, time with friends, or that the girlfriend is very irritating. I wonder that if the relationship was so stressful, then why carry on ? Because they do not see any future with these girls as well. So GAPaula from UK and myself were a bit amused at this revelation but I guess this is just the culture. Talking about work and other banks was quite interesting as well as talking about the other people around us. That was fun because there were 150 people around, so plenty of material to gossip and chat about. I guess that was why we slept at 3 am.

Big mistake cause we had early breakfast at 8 and then a lot of strenuous exercise. It included searching for materials to build a stretcher and then carrying the heaviest person. Tiring. So we had 30 minutes to shower, before getting back to the bus, and then back to the hotel. I took a nap before we had to go back to finish the programme off with more lectures/speeches. Luckily there was time for another nap before we had to dress up for the Cultural Night dinner. It was pretty amazing. Korean dresses are amazingly nice and floaty. Very beautiful. Especially GAJanie. The other countries were also interesting with people dressing up in traditional costumes or as warriors/aboriginals/the statue of liberty/olde English lawyers. But my favourite costumes were the ones from Hong Kong. The 15 of them dressed up in boxes made to look like mahjong tiles !! So cute and funny ! They were the 13 unique wonders plus a flower. So amazingly cute. I got the 'Fatt Choi' tile off them and henceforth it shall be my lucky talisman. No surprises they won the best costume award. A wonderful end to a nice week.

Now it remains to see what the next 5 weeks are like. It could be stressful, as we will be tested and ranked. However, I immensely look forward to more times with the GAs from other countries, especially Hong Kong, China and Taiwan. The Hong Kong GAs are an amazing bunch, so saying hi to them, both GAGordons (both fun and funny), GAVincent (who is amazingly like NickBear), GATracy (the first one I met), GAHilda (the sophisticated one), GACindy (the cute one), GAKenneth (very nice but reminds me of William Hung in a nice way), GAJordi (the cool one), GAIris (the outspoken one), GABishi (the funny one), GAWilman (who reminds me a lot of PatBear), GAEdward (the serious one), GAAlan, GAChris and GABrenda (the ones I need to talk to more).

I love Hong Kong. Yes that includes RoxBear, SoBear and FredBear. Oh, and the ones I have met - JeffBear, NickBear, BeccaBear, FionaBear, FredBear's entire extended family and KenBear. Oh, and who can forget the lovely mahjong tiles..........

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So anyway, I made it to the hotel at 3.30 pm, in plenty of time. Oh the wonderful feeling of asking the doorman get your door and all your luggage and then bringing it up to your room. "1814, yes that is where I am..." And you get all the subservient little valets and jockeys and doormen and bellmen, it is really the life I like. I do think that I could get used to living in hotels my whole life !!

We had to register by 4.45 after which we had some introductions all around, and to our 7 other table mates. So I had 2 Indians, and one each from Japan, Taiwan, China, UK, and Bangladesh. All very nice except one if the Indians is a really aggresive and forceful dominant personality but the good thing is the rest of the table is usually in agreement so he does not get his way a lot. Very good. We had some slide presentations by senior management and then we were off to the bar where we had free drinks and finger food (absolutely the best food to mingle with). So we drank and ate and chatted and said our how-do-you-do's with the needed where/who/what/when/how questions. Very nice. Later for dinner, I and a few other Malaysians and most of the graduates from Hong Kong (I seems to have a special bond with them now, especially when they find out I speak Canto, thanks very much FredBear and RoxBear for always talking to me in Canto !!). We went to Sungeiwang since it was slightly drizzling and thus Jalan Alor was out of the question. We had some Malaysian/Viet/Thai food.Very good. As I was just exhausted, I was in bed by midnight. Could not even muster the strength to watch football (bloody Martins in IzyBear's team......) But there is just the sense of sleepiness in hotels. I could sleep all day ! It was so hard to get up the next morning. But I had to, and did, and went to get some breakfast down before all the teambuilding started. I personally think it is all bollocks and boring but I suppose some people actually enjoy these things and CAN learn from it, though I find it has very small effets on me.

Teambuilding the whole day with 4 meals in between can actually be quite tiring. I napped before dinner, and walked into the lobby. Though I meant to go for a pool party at another hotel, I ended up joining a nice small diverse group of 6 for dinner at a nearby Viet restaurant. Yum. It was just the right size for a dinner party and we were able to talk very much. I like this sort of situations. I think I do love dinner parties..........with diverse cultures and nationalities to talk about. Do you suppose that there could be a future for me in internationalism ? I suppose not.

After dinner, we set out for the pool party and stayed for about an hour. We met some new people as these were the ones from Consumer Banking and Support Functions. Talk, talk yakkity yak. I suppose if my whole career was to be based on chatting people up and making friends it would be quite nice. And interesting. Went to bed later after some TV.

It is Tues morning now, and I only managed to squeeze in 2 cups of juice. Now I am off to training again !!

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I am back from PD today and I will be leaving for KL in an hour. I will be there for 6 weeks in a hotel with IGs from all over the world so it will be a sort of mini IH thing as well. Boy, am I glad I have met people from other countries before !

After the most tiring Friday where I rushed to the Airport to send JengBear off to UK (so sad) I met up with GBear and ATBear to pass them the bloody computer which is faulty and played some mahjong (so happy). By the time I got home it was about 1 am and I still had not packed either for PD or KL. I rushed some stuff into a small bag and dumped a whole lot of others on the bed so Mom could pack it for me. I am extremely suprised too see what a huge pile I needed. Anyway, I had about 4 hours of sleep and then started to drive to KL, picked up 2 managers and then all the way to PD. We actually overshot PD but I managed to get there from Senawang.

We had some games on the beach divided up in groups. Although we did not win, I was proud of myself for teaming up with a more 'senior' colleague and looking as if I was having fun even though I was dead frustated at not being able to win. But it was worth it as many people said 'how kind' and think I am an angel, which am not. But sometimes you win more if you can lose a little. After lunch, I conked out on the bed until netball in the afternoon which I have discovered can be a really nasty little game, since it can be so aggressive without the proper rules. Doing more running than I have in a month, my team won ! Yippee ! We also got second for the tug-o-war, allowing us to creep into 3rd place by a point. So better than last anyway. The best thing then was the karaoke night fever competition that night where I won !! Hurray !! They even presented me with a very nice trophy prize thing, which I like better than maybe a gift voucher of something like that unless it was like RM500 at Zara or Armani Exchange. The funniest thing was that then everyone asked me to sing, I had to duet with the boss, and some people and even had to dance Saturday Night Fever on stage (how embarassing) but it was funny to see everyone let their hair down later and dance, the finale being YMCA. I have also finally heard the whole song of Kuch Kuch Hota Hai, and I think it is pretty nice. Later, I dropped dead in bed again. Until breakfast at 8.30 where we had some lectures and then I sneaked off with permission back home. So I am home now.

Might not be blogging for a while as do not know if will have internet connection though I think if there is none at the hotel, will sneak into the office to blog. Somehow, somewhere I must find a way to update my fantasy football though. I do hope they will not have much activities today, I am rather sore all over.

As usual thinking of everyone out there, and HuGZ to all of you. You better be back soon to return it. :)

Royal Melbourne Show next week !!!!!

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You know what, it seems like I am even busier now ! Due to the bloody illness last weekend, I have only one week, or actually less, since I only have until Friday to do a whole bunch of stuff including the stupid computer and meeting people who are going off to foreign lands. Firstly of course I must note that I must thank YKBear and GarBear for helping with the computer thus far. And JCBear is going to UK on Friday and SharBear is leaving on the 20th. At least I managed to squeeze in a dinner to DaoRae with him before he leaves. As for SharBear, it seems so hard to contact her...

And I have had no end to lunches and dinners that I have been forced to create 'suppers'. Hey after all, there HAS to be a reason why they are there right ? So now, in addition to breakfast, lunch and dinner, I am able to ask people out for supper. Good. I should have figured all this out a long time ago.

2 days to go before Port Dickson for company trip though I have to rush back to start off my 6 weeks of training in a KL hotel. You see ! My schedule is so rushed I hardly get any time off for myself. I have no time to eat properly since it is always for a meeting, I have no time to blog and so I am doing this from the office early in the morning. I need a personal assistant who can help me schedule stuff ! Or maybe I do not.

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I have been out of commission for the last 48 hours. I basically slept, drank water, went to the toilet and slept again.

It seems that even in Malaysia I cannot escape my once a year super-flu which attacks around this time every year. Oh well, at least some things never change. I wonder if I was already sick anyway ? But I do agree that running through the rain to the car was a big factor which caused the monstrous bug to awaken. But we had to, since if we did not run to the car, we would have been stuck in KL for the next 3 hours. So we did what we had to do and I developed a high fever that night itself. And of course just like the last 3 years, I stubbornly refused to visit the doctor. But I reckoned without the strong force of the Mother who finally made me go to the doctor today. I do feel somewhat better, good enough to stay awake for a while anyway.

Need more energy. The last thing I need would be to feel poorly just as I enter the fun parts of work - 6 weeks training in a hotel with other graduates from around the world. Almost like going back to university again. Almost.

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I came back to the city. Sigh. Feels so good. Though somehow I got a sort of cold/stuffed nose, maybe part of my away from KL syndrome. Basically everytime I go away, when I come back, it is as if I am no longer used to the dirty air in this place and all my allergies act up. Eww. Hate it. Eyes go red and watery and then my sinus acts up too. Luckily I made it through the lunch with the CEO and other top members before it became really bad.

Then I met up with GBear and AnBear for a walk at Low Yat and looked at all sorts of computers before tramping through heavy rain to the car to rush out of the city at rush hour. Luckily we made it. But the damage is done I think. I think I have full blown flu. Hope getting enough rest tonight, as am doing some serious driving to Ipoh tomorrow with JengBear to meet ColBear. Just a little road trip. Need sleep. Am sneezing like crazy. Where is my hot honey lemon when I need it ?

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It is a bit amazing when I think about what can happen in a month. 3 Amazing Races, 2 Project Runways, 22 Tutenstein/Raven, 8 Suite Lives, tens of destinations around the world, hundreds of dishes of food, 40 cocktails, about 20 wines, a 2 hour interview with David Tao, 20 episodes of China's Ms World showdowns, a lot of Jamie Oliver, too much of Lilo & Stitch, 2 golf tournaments, 8 soccer matches, 2 High School Musicals, 16 Disney Original Movies, multiple Fear Factors, House, Nip/Tuck, Desperate Housewives, Contender and various others not to mention hours of commercials/news updates. I reckon, that on a normal weekday, I spend around 6 hours on the television at least. On weekends, that number sometimes increases all the way to 16 hours. That is a lot of TV. Probably too much TV. But I have learnt a lot as well, especially from the Travel and Living Channel. So it is not all bad. And if you think that my last few posts have been revolving around the TV it is because my LIFE currently revolves around the TV. Hopefully this will change in 2 days. 2 days !! Hurray ! I cannot believe it has been a month !

Awww and SailorJeow sent me pictures of this marvellous mansion Shanghai whose main purpose is to be the venue for lavish wedding parties. The Place itself is called Shanghai Wedding Story. It is amazing. I would love to have a party there.

Meanwhile, July Babies.Seems so real. I never knew I could be so complicated. JulFun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

And I am HOME !! It feels weird as if I just came back from Melbourne. But lots of things to do ! The whole world is waiting for me to achieve something.

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Switch On. Life has been rather surreal lately, and most of if not all of life revolves around the TV. All hail the greatest invention of all time !!!

Flick. Channel hopping being the greatest finger sport activity of all time !! Watching 6 channels at one time requires great skill, precision and dexterity. What a way to spend Sunday in bed. They showed Project Runway : Reunion and Finale. For both the first 2 seasons. If you hear laughing from inside Room 1315, that should be me.

Flick. So I was eating breakfast and then I saw the waffles. Yum. No syrup of course, and just a little jam. Fruit juice is good.

Flick. House is watchable even for the 4th time in your life, 3rd time in a week. So what if you have memorised it. Trollz is a pretty decent Sunday morning cartoon, because they have really nice hair.

Flick. The fruit is pretty good too, usually it is just pineapple and watermelon. Today we actually have some honeydew, papaya and banana. Quite an interesting and good variety. Ooh. Pretty full in the dining room today.

Flick. So I have decided to go shopping today. Who says that shopping is not a sport ! It is too. Have decided to pop into the internet cafe first. Dang. There must be a million kids here. There is even a line waiting. Better go upstairs first.

Flick. There is this new cartoon. Weird. Reminds me of Captain Planet with the 5 fairies representing Water, Air, Fire, Earth and Heart. But it is something different. Hmph. Disney is showing Suite Life again. Getting boring. Too bad will not be around to catch Hannah Montana.

Flick. Omelette or Hard Boiled ? Omelette or Hard Boiled ? Omelette it is. Yum.

Flick. Now this is nice, but so is this, and so is this. Gosh, I should have come here more often so I could really look through this properly. Since the first time I came, and gotten crazy, I decided to avoid this place until the last weekend so I would be calmer and not try to buy everything. But now I wish I had the time to try everything. OK, this, this and this...and this... Where is the fitting room ?

Flick. Come to think of it. It is CSI Supreme Sunday. Ooh, so that was how it started. Come to think of it, how come they are re-showing Come to Dine with Me again ? Hmm at least now I know that it was the bitchy Jen? that gave Chris a 1 !! OMG. Talk about competitive ! How can you give someone a 1 on a scale of 10 ? That is plain rude !!

Flick. Tomato rice is pretty bad, compared to the egg fried rice but the noodles are not bad. Still have not touched the pastries since the first day, and do not thin will be trying them now. Looks pretty dry.

Flick. I LOVE THEM ALL !! How can I choose ? This purple one will be different, since I do not think I have anything actually in purple. I like this design, but should I get the one in white, black or blue ? This will look great with my new pants ! Ooh, love the logo, but is the look that I want. OK, this is officially a crisis !! Code Red. We have walked into the store which requires us to buy everything !!

Flick. I swear. With the amount of re-showings, it is as if ASTRO thinks that normal humans DO NOT have time to watch TV on weekdays ! There are no new episodes on weekends ?? Why ? Why? This is so unfair to people like me who have to sit through these re-runs ! I protest ! Even though I do not actually have ASTRO.

Flick. Baked Beans. Avoid. Potato Wedges. Looks oily and cold, Avoid. Turkey ham, avoid till the next batch. Corned Beef, AVOID LIKE THE PLAGUE.

Flick. OK, have tried on 34 pieces. Breathe in. Breathe in. Breathe in. Breathe in. Will take this and only this. After paying must tiptoe out to avoid letting salespeople know am only taking one. But focus. Self discipline. Focus. Self discipline. Think of exploding wardrobe at home. Think of clothes bought and unworn. Focus. Pay. Breathe in. Do not look around any more. Now, step out and do not look back. DO NOT LOOK BACK !!! ARGHHH

Flick. TV will be the death of me. Maybe I will go out for a walk after all.

Flick. Ah, juice is finished. I shall proceed to leave the dining room.

Flick. OK. 1 top, 1 pant. Good moderation. Good self control. Now try to leave the chocolate shop with just as much self discipline. Step out. Stop looking at the Crispy Chocolate Coated Creme Coconut Chips. Stop. Breathe In. Breathe In. Breathe In !!! Run towards the hotel !! Away from shopping.

Switch Off.

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You know there is something funny going on when you cannot stop smiling as you look into your computer screen. Since I missed a couple of episodes of Project Runway, I was reading episode recaps. I do that a lot for shows I have no time or Astro to watch. Anyway, there is this episode where Kara says to the camera that she will snip off Daniel's pee-pee if they get eliminated while snipping a huge pair of scissors. I found that very funny and could visualise her saying that. Which is very bad ! I visualised a whole episode of Desperate Housewives so I was pretty freaked out when I found out that it happened and sounded just like I thought it would have. This is a danger. I am certainly getting addicted to these characters as they seem to be more real to me than 'real' people !!! I know how they speak and how they smile and how they sound like. Dangerous. I need to talk to real people more ! But I reiterate that Project Runway and House are the best shows being shown at the moment. Sheesh, definitely watching too much television. And I am so in love with Heidi Klum.

I am also surfing to see how to plan a short trip to Ipoh. Maybe just a day or maybe overnight. Not sure if it will happen though. MrLou just returned from skiing in Melbourne. Lucky lucky person ! I would love to go skiing now. Or even just visit Melbourne for 2 weeks. But as I have known, it is much harder to save money than it seems. I have already given up on Hong Kong at the end of this year, and I have mentally recalculated my Melbourne trip next year a million times to convince myself that I can afford it. It sucks to be poor, yes. And as of now, I have decided NOT to buy the boots. NO. NO BOOTS ! What about the D&G T-shirts that I wanted to get though ?...........I will take a look at them again this weekend and decide then. Sigh. But self discipline is sooooooooo important. It gives me some comfort to know that I tried on 3 funky shirts (you know, those with straps and useless buttons, and zips and words everywhere...) that I loved and did not buy one. I wore them. Enjoyed them in the dressing room and took them off. Loved them, but no. Is it not sad ? Almost as if I was one of the starving children in Africa. But then again, they probably do not know what salmon tastes like, so they might miss it. But when you have tried on jackets and T-shirts in Chapel and Collins which costs as much as a semester's worth of fees, you yearn. Shucks. For someone who dislikes high maintenance in other people, I am terrible. I wish I was more easily satisfied. Because I truly think it is a big obstacle to me being totally happy. I am very hard to please. But that might not be totally true, because sometimes I am easily pleased too. I think there is this whole different parts about each person concept. Hmmm. Too complicated.

It is freezing here. Talking about freezing, I have been having insomnia for the past three nights and I am just not getting enough sleep. In effect, I have been getting rather cranky and bored with the geezers over here. So a tad impatient when they fail to understand some things but I am not letting it get to me, yet. I still need to be the perfect one until I can afford NOT to be the perfect one. Somehow, you learn how to act better at work, after watching hours of reality TV. Seriously, there has to be someting going on with the whole thing of being nice, or at least PRETENDING to be nice, until you get what you want/need. Everyone is doing it, or should I rather say that everyone, who is somewhere, or going somewhere or wants to be somewhere is doing it. Yea, it is great to be yourself and be nice to everyone but it is a law of nature that you cannot do that. I am nice and I try to be nice most of the time. And yes, it is sincere. But sometimes, I do fake ! it especially if occasion calls for it. That is life. Adult life anyway. Probably because when you were younger in school, you did not really need as much help from others in life. By now, you would think that growing up kinda sucks. Maybe. But I think it is all a matter of learning how to deal with it to the best of your abilities and then making the best of everything. And if life sucks, it sucks. Get a drink and a friendly ear, and rant. Or just blog about it. And then return to your hateful situation and smile. Hehe. Enjoy your youth. Growing up is harder than you think.

We had to work on National Day even though it was a public holiday as they were rushing to complete some projects. Ug. But it was ok and work today was alright as well and once again I am puzzled at how people can be surprised by the awesome power of microsoft office !? Just because I completed a few hundred letters on Word as well as a whole lot of databasing on Excel. Crap, this is not even the programming that I learnt in university. Now that was crappy. But I suppose it does now matter how I impress these people as long as I impress them right ? Yep.

I am stoked as there are only about 5 days to KL ! Woohoo ! Absolutely cannot wait. I have thought about the boots again and have decided against them again. And I just realised that I actually DO have a whole bit of savings......since the bank will be paying for my CFA exams, there is a couple of thousand right there. Phew. I guess I am not as poor as all that. But still, no boots. But maybe 2 shirts. Maybe.

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