WARNING : VERY WHINY POST AHEAD.

Other than the always present whining about my internet at home not working, I have a millions whines and discouraging observations. If you do not want to feel depressed stop reading now.

Anyway, I think it was pretty fair to say that it was the worst ever Christmas for me. First of all, even though Christmas day is on Sunday, I still had to go to church twice...because of some half-baked concert for Christmas. Waste of time. And I had been waiting for Christmas to be on Sunday for like 6 years !

Then, the cake did not turn out too fluffy, but I guess that cannot be helped. Gifts as usual were terrible but made worse by the fact that they reached a new low. Let me do a recap. Packet of tea (WTF), keychains with dinosaurs (WTF), a Korean movie I have never heard of and obviously watched before (WTF), a towel (WTF but then I get this every year), 2 photo albums (WTF), a plush blanket (Reminding everyone that we are in a very hot country plus I have been receiving blankets for the last 2 years), some clothes (actually 3 pieces plus belt and undies which is very much a consolation and a pair of kitchen tongs. I must say I was happiest with the undies and the tongs. Since they were things that I actually wanted. It is a big disappointment considering the lengths I went to for my gifts. Have therefore decided will just give cupcakes (handmade) to everyone next year. Saves me the thinking time plus I save money to buy gifts for myself. So what if I do not get gifts from others ?

Next whine. Petrol is effing expensive. You kids think money falls from trees ? As part of the nations's unemployed I am very unimpressed with the spending power of kids nowadays. Enough said.

Next whine. Well not really. It is old. I have too much clothes and cannot really bear to throw any away. Need more space. Will not buy any for 3 months. I swear.

Next whine. My house is extremely messy and I do not understand how anyone can stay in the place without a headache. Lots of cleaning to do.

Next whine. Eyes are swollen with lack of sleep, the disgusting air that we have and crying. Well not really crying. But lots of emotional tearing.

Next whine. No Astro. Cannot watch shit. Or Soccer. Or Tennis. Or Maria Sharapova.

Next whine and probably last for now. Talk about the feel good feeling in IH. Lost. Maybe forever. Things change. I did not want to believe it for the longest time but I am sorry it happened. And to think I used to be so idealistic. Kids, listen to you mother. She is usually right. How long will friends last you anyway ? Stupid changing life. And they expect one to deal with it by themselves. Everyone else is too busy of course. Who remembers you when they are having fun elsewhere. It is just hi, bye, smile, how are you, smile again. Talk to you soon in 3 years. No wonder so many people need a psychiatrist. Plus I TOLD YOU people would move on without you. So do not even think for a moment that you can change things. It could have been better if it never started.

Queen E II says that for many it was the worst Christmas ever. I concur.

Negative feelings around. I feel it in my fingers and my toes. Pah humbug.

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