People have left IH already. Some of whom I will probably never see again. That is very sad.
Notable absences tonight include JeanBear, CharBear, EelBear, KennyBear and GraceBear. EricBear has gone too I think. The Apartment is now empty. Well, officially anyway. With the going of SalBear and XXBear, there is now only me in the apartment. The only one good thing about that is that I can start keeping it really clean. The way I dreamed it would be.

But what is warm and friendly and homey about a super clean apartment ?

To have a super clean apartment, you would have to not have much guests, or at least require them to be so proper that they will never ever come again. You would not have pets or any windows open so that no dust can come in. Shoes are banned, blue tack will be rigorously checked for stickiness and the cutlery washed 5 times.

I would rather have people around.

One thing that I discovered today. Sometimes, the human being is not as affected by bad things happening to them. Rather, it is the disappointment of expectation. For example, if someone got a pencil for Christmas, they might be sad. But what if they expected a pencil ? Then they would be reasonably happy. The worst thing is if someone expected an engagement ring, or a car, or an Ipod even.

And instead they got a pencil.

Yup, I am talking about disappointment here. You wonder sometimes, why people get so upset at certain things happening. It is because they had expectations. You expect someone to call you, and they do not. You expect a raise because you were the best worker, and you do not. You expect to get 4 H1s and you do not. You expect it to snow for the first time in 340 years, and it does not. Does that mean we should never have good expectations..? (I almost wrote great expectations but realise it will sound weird. Good expectations still sound weird though.)

Maybe.

The funny and stupid thing about people is that they can be stupid. And expect the same thing even if they have been disappointed once before. Why does one not learn from their experiences ? Why can one not understand that whatever it is will not be happening, that it is a waste of time, money and effort ? Especially after a few times' worth of disappointments !?

Maybe it is because I am stupid.

(This is a rant post...probably cause I feel disappointed.)

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